So over the last couple of months the thought of putting myself through IVF again has played heavily on my mind. After A LOT of hurdles, it wouldn’t be fair on George to see us do it again.
ICSI, OHSS, transfer, low betas, heartbeat 💗, miscarriage, FET, pregnancy, gestational diabetes, IUGR, kidney difficulties (stage 3 kidney disease), preeclampsia, emergency C section at 34 weeks, feeding difficulties, 3 weeks in NICU, kidney reflux, acid reflux, CMPA, cerebral palsy….
it’s like it’s just not written in the stars for us. We are utterly blessed to have George he is just the happiest kid on the planet. I feel so sad that my baby days are (probably unless some miracle happens) over. But I’ve really had to consider George in all of this, he needs me at my best not constantly worrying or upset. So we made the phone call to cancel our appointment. I’m not going to lie I do resent those that it comes easy to and don’t even appreciate their kids but it’s not their fault. We’re all different I suppose! I believe I must have another purpose in the future and I’m intrigued to find out what it is.
How can I be sad with the happiest, most beautiful, face in the world admiring me?!